"Let's seize the day," said my art teacher before leaving the class room. Why is she so excited? She's been to this place a bunch of times, I thought. The date is a bit foggy but I can
still remember the sulking feeling I had on that early day during my sophomore
year of high school. I remember feeling less than enthused once I heard we were heading to
the High Line, an old railroad turned park in West Side Manhattan.
I hadn’t even been to Manhattan. I only just started referring to it as, the city because I felt that was my job as a New Yorker. The walk to the subway was quick but I didn’t know how to handle standing in such a swamp-like atmosphere. The moist air in the platform appeared to be scraping off the bad paint job. Cracks between each footstep grew more crooked and the billboards were clearly old as most of the films were no longer showing in theaters. I felt like the walls were closing in on me and I had to dodge dirt filled puddles on more than one occasion. The rigid ground poked at the soles of my feet as if I were an unwanted guest. The dark walls tried to consume me while the air blurred my vision. I looked to my left and saw no signs of worry in the faces of those among me. I am not a true New Yorker, I thought. The experience must've been some sort of initiation in order to earn my stripes. Entering the train was like stepping into a shaky boat, all I could do was hold on for dear life. The people in the train seemed like experts as they read their newspapers and ignored the plea from a panhandler.
I hadn’t even been to Manhattan. I only just started referring to it as, the city because I felt that was my job as a New Yorker. The walk to the subway was quick but I didn’t know how to handle standing in such a swamp-like atmosphere. The moist air in the platform appeared to be scraping off the bad paint job. Cracks between each footstep grew more crooked and the billboards were clearly old as most of the films were no longer showing in theaters. I felt like the walls were closing in on me and I had to dodge dirt filled puddles on more than one occasion. The rigid ground poked at the soles of my feet as if I were an unwanted guest. The dark walls tried to consume me while the air blurred my vision. I looked to my left and saw no signs of worry in the faces of those among me. I am not a true New Yorker, I thought. The experience must've been some sort of initiation in order to earn my stripes. Entering the train was like stepping into a shaky boat, all I could do was hold on for dear life. The people in the train seemed like experts as they read their newspapers and ignored the plea from a panhandler.
The entire trip was a blur but when it was over my teacher's words were loud and clear. “Does anybody not know how to find their way
back home?” I could only imagine lifting
my arm up. As I looked to my right,
nobody seemed to have trouble, which meant there was no way my hand was going
up. I attempted to group up with my clan
but ended up losing touch when they decided they’d go hang out elsewhere. Unfortunately, I wasn’t paying attention to our route; instead I was too
busy enjoying the view. My instincts told me to keep moving forward
as I began finding traces of where I came from.
The people around appeared much larger and
I felt as if I did not belong.
The streets offered loud noise of construction, a vast difference from my quiet and secluded home. Anxiety began to build, as I couldn't decide whether to slow or speed up my footsteps. The smell of cigarette smoke began to fill my nostrils, but instead of walking away I felt comforted by the warmth. It reminded me of how my uncle smelled. Eventually a sharp pain made its way to the bottom of my feet - I've been walking around for a couple of hours now. I stopped as my eyes wandered, hoping to find a familiar face. The strange folks appeared to be moving in fast forward, preoccupied with their endeavors. Even the buses appeared foreign to me. They were clearly not headed towards Queens. There was no cell phone in my pocket, no tools in my back pack, no map in my immediate area. This is it - time to set up a piece of cardboard and join the homeless man to my left. He was completely invincible as far as the rest of the bystanders were concerned. I wondered if he started off as a young buck lost on a field trip like me. My shoulders sulked as my will began to break. My surroundings became darker as the streets began to fill up with more business suits. I turned the corner when I spotted my lifeline.
An off duty MTA employee. Her legs slowly trotted forward as she was in no rush. Her hat covered her entire forehead and her uniform fit hit her perfectly despite the rolled up pant sleeves. I froze as she was approached by what I assume was her coworker. I gathered as much courage as I could and softly spoke, "Excuse me." I asked where the nearest train station was as she inched closer and closer. I looked down to the ground and found our feet nearly attached. She asked where I was going. I did my best to ignore the people walking around us and held onto every word she spoke. Her directions were quick and simple. Almost too simple. Had the train really been that close this entire time?
I was walking in the opposite direction this entire time. I smiled as I gained new found assurance. I kept repeating her words over and over under my breath.
The welcoming Times Square bright lights were ignored. At this point my damp and factory filled home was my utopia. There it was, the gloomy green stairwell leading to the underground with a number 7 hanging above. My eyes lit up as I awkwardly jogged over ignoring the agony my feet had endured. I rushed down the steps and exhaled.
An empty train awaited at a standstill. I didn't care to know why it wasn't moving. I just believed it had been waiting for me. I entered the least filled cart filled and sighed as I threw myself onto the uncomfortable seat that felt like heaven. I couldn't help but smile at the rumbling sounds of the train taking off. Soon I could see the brightness burst through the windows as we left the underground and inched closer to home.
The streets offered loud noise of construction, a vast difference from my quiet and secluded home. Anxiety began to build, as I couldn't decide whether to slow or speed up my footsteps. The smell of cigarette smoke began to fill my nostrils, but instead of walking away I felt comforted by the warmth. It reminded me of how my uncle smelled. Eventually a sharp pain made its way to the bottom of my feet - I've been walking around for a couple of hours now. I stopped as my eyes wandered, hoping to find a familiar face. The strange folks appeared to be moving in fast forward, preoccupied with their endeavors. Even the buses appeared foreign to me. They were clearly not headed towards Queens. There was no cell phone in my pocket, no tools in my back pack, no map in my immediate area. This is it - time to set up a piece of cardboard and join the homeless man to my left. He was completely invincible as far as the rest of the bystanders were concerned. I wondered if he started off as a young buck lost on a field trip like me. My shoulders sulked as my will began to break. My surroundings became darker as the streets began to fill up with more business suits. I turned the corner when I spotted my lifeline.
An off duty MTA employee. Her legs slowly trotted forward as she was in no rush. Her hat covered her entire forehead and her uniform fit hit her perfectly despite the rolled up pant sleeves. I froze as she was approached by what I assume was her coworker. I gathered as much courage as I could and softly spoke, "Excuse me." I asked where the nearest train station was as she inched closer and closer. I looked down to the ground and found our feet nearly attached. She asked where I was going. I did my best to ignore the people walking around us and held onto every word she spoke. Her directions were quick and simple. Almost too simple. Had the train really been that close this entire time?
I was walking in the opposite direction this entire time. I smiled as I gained new found assurance. I kept repeating her words over and over under my breath.
The welcoming Times Square bright lights were ignored. At this point my damp and factory filled home was my utopia. There it was, the gloomy green stairwell leading to the underground with a number 7 hanging above. My eyes lit up as I awkwardly jogged over ignoring the agony my feet had endured. I rushed down the steps and exhaled.
An empty train awaited at a standstill. I didn't care to know why it wasn't moving. I just believed it had been waiting for me. I entered the least filled cart filled and sighed as I threw myself onto the uncomfortable seat that felt like heaven. I couldn't help but smile at the rumbling sounds of the train taking off. Soon I could see the brightness burst through the windows as we left the underground and inched closer to home.